Am Back!! with new found hobby..

Been quite some time I haven't done any blogging. Guest I am so occupied with many things happening starting from the renovation of my kitchen to my participating of the 'one to one' basketball tournament. Time fly so fast and now we are in the month of August 2010. Nevertheless, despite of the hectic office work, I still find a lot of activities to do. Of coz, with the completion of my kitchen renovation, that I started to make my dream of baking cakes into a realty. Of coz, none of my friends believe that I can do it, but when they see the fruit of my labor then they know that I am not joking. Since last month, I invested a lot of money in buying all the baking and decorating tools. I know some of it are very expensive but then I believe that to be different we must be daring enough. The first few try of baking was very devastating. either my cake are too soft or too hard. Anyway, I am not the type of person that gives up easily therefore, I keep on trying until I manage to bake reasonably taste good cookies and cake(according to Alistair. there onward, I improve my baking of cakes, cupcake and cookies. I want to be different therefore most of my topping I use fondant (sugar icing). I am always fascinated with cakes or cupcakes covered with beautiful decorated fondant.
Well, with the experienced I have coupled with my passion for baking cakes, I hope to produce cakes and cupcakes with beautiful fondant decoration.

happy Birthday my son..

After celebrating my birthday in the month of March 2010, it was Alistair turn to celebrate his 15th years old on the 5th April 2010. Time pass by so fast.. suddenly from a young boy, Alistair has now grown up into a young man. On top of that, his height has suddenly toppled me and his daddy. I can see some pimples here and there and though he is a bit worried about it, but I told him, it is part and parcel of growing up. His tone of voice also change. Suprisingly, he didn't ask much for his birthday except for some story books which I bought for him in advance as per his request. Both book as thick as about 450-550 pages were related to the 'twilight zone'movie. I can see that Alistair is growing up to become such a quiet but responsible young man. i can observe that he is more leading and guiding his sister but of coz knowing Megan, as being not the type of person that like to be told what to do, Alistair is finding tough time to deal with his sister. At times, he just gave up. My son.. please don't give up. Keep on guiding your sister, there is only the two of you and both of you need each other.
Happy Birthday my son..Every night I pray that you will grow to become a responsible and respectable person who still hold all the values and belief in the faith that has been with you since born.

Learn to Let Go..

To Let Go

To let go does not mean to stop caring,
it means I can’t do it for someone else.
To let go is not to cut myself off,
it’s the realization that I can’t control another.
To let go is not to enable,
but to allow learning from natural consequences.
To let go is to admit powerlessness,
which means the outcome is not in my hands.
To let go is not to try to change or blame another,
it’s to make the most of myself.
To let go is not to care for,
but to care about.
To let go is not to fix,
but to be supportive.
To let go is not to judge,
but to allow another to be a human being.
To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,
but to allow others to affect their own destinies.
To let go is not to be protective,
it’s to permit another to face reality.
To let go is not to criticize, or regulate anyone,
but to try to become what I dream I can do.
To let go is to fear less, and to love more.

—Author Unknown

It is my hope that I will be strong enough to let go...

On my 43th Birthday

Hooray! Am officially 43 years old. Am thankful that I am still breathing, healthy and enjoying life. Time passed by so fast. When I think back of all the things that I have gone throughfor the past years, there is nothing that have made me regret. Not that my life is sailing smoothly, but I guess all the ups and down, sadness, joy, excitement, anxiety, anger, etc are just part and parcel of my life. It add the colors and spice up my life, made it interesting and challenging.

What is so great at this age?

1. I am independent
2. I do not feel guilty if I let people down, why should I anyway?
3. I have no obligation to make people happy except to myself
4. I an not answerable to anybody
5. I pleased myself first and foremost
6. I have no worries of speaking my mind


My hope is that I would live long enough to enjoy the fruit of my hard labor

Happy 43th Birthday to me (2 March 1967)

Treasure Hunt Outing Day..

Wow.. We did it again! Me and ladies friends just concluded our 3rd consecutive treasure hunt driving joyfully throughout KK and Penampang town. Again, did not manage to secure placing of top 30, however, we really enjoyed our outing. It was fun and at the same time very very challenging especially the cracking of codes. anyway, at the end of the day, I had a good day of my own. My hope is that maybe, perhaps, next year 2011, would try to outbeat those top 30 winners!!

I am a qualified Blood Donor for the 1st time

I am always curious and envy those people who could donate blood successfully. Previously, I was ashamed of myself for not able to contribute. And it has been years that I have tried but my blood count is always low coupled with my low blood pressure. Ya, I am a mild anemic person but considered to be not so dangerous. But this time, when I organised the campaign for my office, I never thought that I could be a first timer blood donor. Congratulation to me! I am now a qualified Blood Donor. That is satisfaction to me. To be able to do things like the rest of the concerned people. I have done my bit of helping the needy. My only hope and thought is that I could continue donating blood in the next campaign.

Fashionably Me..

I am for transformation and that includes doing some overhauling the wardrobe. Tried some fashion show.. Can't believe that I could really be fashionable...He.he.. I dare to try. My thoughts and hope is that I will continue enjoying the fruit of my hard earned labor...

Celebrating Valentine's Day..

Celebrating Valentine Day nowadays was totally different as compared to when I was twenty years old. That was about 23 years ago. Everything was expensive. What can I say.. We were still college students that time and away from family, staying in a hostel. Money was scarce and to spend some money for valentine celebration is an extravagant to us (me and my boyfriend then)..Come valentine day, I was a little bit jeolous of my friends when I see them receiving bouquet of red roses and chocolates. What did I received? I think none. I can't blame my boyfriend though. He is not that romantic and does not believe in this celebration. When I ask him whether he gonna buy me flowers, he just said to me, he rather spend the money to treat me for a good dinner than buying flowers. Okay.. how sweet and how thoughtful of him. So, on valentine night, he asked me to wait for him at the gate entrance of my hostel coz we gonna go out for dinner as promised. When he arrived at the gate, he passed to me a poster beautifully wrapped. I was quite curious to see the content of it. So, when I have the opportunity to open the wrap, it was a poster of big red roses flowers. According to my boyfriend then, the purpose of the red roses poster is that I am gonna hang it on my bedroom wall and it will remain there forever so long as I take good care of it. Everytime I look at the poster, it reminded me of my practical boyfriend. According to him, red rose flowers will dry off and gone. What a waste of money.. Well, can't blame him, he was just being very practical! After that, I never asked for red roses flowers again during valentine day. Even until today.
My boyfriend then who turn to be my hubby now is still the same. Always practical. Never bought me flower except for during my MBA graduation. But to compensate the missing flower, he rather bought me my favorite parfum of which I know is very expensive. Comparing between the flower and parfum, I will definitely go for the parfum. Check the price!! So, yesterday, 14 Feb 2010, we celebrate valentine night with our children Alistair and Megan at Sinar Mustika Restaurant, Putatan. We just want to avoid the traffic jam and hassle, so we choose a small restaurant but most important everybody enjoyed the food.
Valentine Day celebration is not only celebrated among lovers but also among families and despite of the simple celebration, am happy because I celebrated it with my beloved family..We are together. I wonder where did I kept that red roses poster?
My only thoughts and hope is that we gonna continue celebrating valentine day together..with so much love

Poem for my beloved family..
The love of my family is so sweet
Very unique
The love of my family holds a special bond of concern for the unknown
The love of my family strengthen as the years past from birth to adulthood
The love of my family is mine to have
The love of my family is my family love
Pure love
My love of my family is known to me
How appreciate my love of my family
By Ms. Anita Martez

Evening Dresses that kills..

I Have always enjoyed wearing beautiful and sexy evening dress. But then, I realised that I can't find evening dresses that really kills.. just like these dresses that I come across in the internet. Isn't it beautiful, lovely and sexy too? I would love to have these design one of this days to be complimented with my beautiful sexy black high heels and the exotic hair clips.. Can't wait..
I hope my dream will come true that one day.. am gonna wear all these beautiful evening dresses...

Am Crazy of Hair Clips Too..

You know.. it is always an advantage to have long hair. I can do a lot of hair fashion. I can blow set it, I can even just blow straight it, or just do hair set or even just let it loose and play around with beautiful hair clips. I have my own collection of hari clips but nowadays I have to share it with my beloved daughter. She too have beautiful lock thick black hair. Am proud that she has healthy hair too, just like the mummy!
I hope that I would be able to collect more exoctic, colorful with beads hair clip so that I can use it often..I feel good wearing it.. it add style to my long hair.. love it. Some of the sample of hair clips which I got it from the internet and might purchased it soon..

Sexy High Heels..

I am an ardent fan of sexy high heels. Love to see women with beautiful and slim leg wearing high heels. That really fascinate me. I am tall and therefore I know I will look good in high heels. Perhaps, need to slim my long leg to become more slender. Yep.. my target is this mid year.. hopefully.. able to wear those lovely sexy high heels in one of the dinner..
Some of my dream high heels..

Me & My Beautiful Car..

I first had a glance of this Hyundai Matrix car in the year 2005. At the same time I was shopping around for new car to replace my Kelisa. My hubby was pestering me to purchase the Toyota Vios but somehow it does not click. I was not even tempted to test drive it. Guess.. it is just not my taste! Sorry darling can't take that toyota vios.
Then one day, I saw this beautiful yellow car passing by and I quickly get hold of the brand.. It was Hyundai Matrix. This time I pester my hubby to visit the show room at Likas and the rest was history. It's been almost 5 years I have been driving it and it has been very loyal to me, never failed me, infact when am inside it, it is like my second home. Recently, I decided to make my car even prettier with new paint. Of coz, it won't materialised if its not because of the generosity of my hubby to part with his RM3,700.00 money to pay for the new paint called 'Chrystal pearly green blue'. Wow.. what a color!!
My thoughts and hope is that my beautiful SAA7959H car will remain intact with me as long as it can..

I am in the mood for futsal again..

At last after months of no futsal.. today evening, me and friends played at our favorite spot. We didn't win but I believe it is only a matter of time and consistent pracitising we definitely gonna catch up with the other team. What matter most is that I enjoyed the running and kicking. Yep.. I still have that skill which I built for the past 3 years.

It is good to be able to run again.. Not to say that I am very good in futsal but the fact that I was able to kick the ball was damn good..
I hope that this year my team gonna win that tournament. We lost twice already in the past 4 years and am determine to take home that trophy. I don't want the medal, I want the trophy...

Happy 46th Birthday Hubby...

Yesterday, Alistair, Megan and me celebrate their daddy's birthday. He is officialy 46th years old! Still young though.. We didn't have big celebration this time coz we just want to spend time together as a family. We celebrate it at 'the Hut', my children's favorite restaurant. But before that, hubby cut his cake to commemorate his birthday at home before proceeding to dinner. It has been a tradition to our small family to celebrate each other birthday. The kids bought their daddy a beautiful card and a small mug for him to use at his office. Hopefully he will use it?

There is nothing more than we can wish for him except for him to have good health always. My thoughts and hope for my beloved hubby is that may he always have a brighter life, peace and happiness always. In this way, he would be able to concentrate in whatever he endeavor to do without much disturbance.

We Love you Daddy..

Embracing Imperfection..

A Sharing I got from the internet, I hope I could emulate and embraced as I continue the journey..

EMBRACING IMPERFECTION
When I was a little girl, I could remember, my mom making breakfast and dinner for us.
And I remember one night in particular, when she had made dinner after a long, hard day at work.
On that evening so long ago, my mom placed a plate of vegetables, salad and burned chappati in front of my dad.
I remember waiting to see if anyone noticed'
Yet all my dad did was, to reach for his chappati, smile at mom and ask me how my day was at school.
I don't remember what I told him that night, but, I do remember watching him smear chatani on that chappati and eat every bite?

When I got up from the table that evening, I remember hearing my mom apologize to my dad
For burning the chapati.
And I'll never forget what he said.
Baby, I love burnt chapati.
Later that night, I went to kiss daddy good night and I asked him if he really liked his chapati burnt.
He wrapped me in his arms and said
Dear , your momma put in a hard day at work today and she's real tired, And besides, a little burnt chappati never hurt anyone .
You know life is full of imperfect things and imperfect people.

I am not the best housekeeper or cook.
What I'v learnt over the years
Is that learning to accept each other's faults
And choosing to celebrate each other's difference
Is one of the most important keys
for creating a healthy growing
And lasting relationship.
And that's my prayer for you today,
that you will learn to take
The good, the bad, and the ugly parts of your life
And lay them at the feet of God
Because in the end,
He's the only One who will be able
To give you a relationship
Where burnt chappati isn't a deal-breaker"
We could extend this to any relationship, in fact .
As understanding is the base of any
relationship ,
Be it a husband - wife or parent - child or even with friends.

Don't put the key to your happiness in
someone else's pocket, but, into your own.

My thoughts and hope is that I will continue to accept others imperfection, failures and differences, to embrace it as part and parcel of life..

We're Gonna Hunt Again!!

Yep.. come 28 Feb 2010, our 3rd consecutive year joining the DBKK Treasure Hunt. Did we won last year or the previous year? Nope.. we didn't but we gain experience of what treasure hunt meant. I am very excited to participate again this year. Not because that I expect to win (but who knows, my team could win something this time). I am expecting that adventure again.. I have enjoyed it very much and I believe my friends comprising of Erica, Winnie and Doreen would think same. I enjoyed the driving around, the excitement of searching for clues and the above all, the high spirit and confidence of getting the answers to the trivia eventhough later on we found out that the answer was no way near. Yuck!!! Anyway, it is important that we must have the right team members who has the same 'gila-gila' coz everybody gonna spent time together inside the car the whole day. Can you imagine if you have someone in the team who just don't click with the rest.

My thought and hope for this year is that my team will improve our placing and who knows (am keeping the hope) that we could win something!! Keep my finger cross..Most important we gonna enjoy the hunting.. Go..Go .. SCC Ladies Hunters!

True friends remain forever..

last monday evening, I had the opportunity to meet my friends whom we have known since way back when we were in primary one (year 1973).. Wow.. that was about 38 years ago.. Though we are staying not far from each other but due to work commitment, family, career, everyone went to their own ways...not realising that its been years already that we have not really met and sit down together. How time flies so fast.. I think the last we all had our happy moment was in year 1983 (form 5). After that everyone went to diferent path.. some get married earlier and some later (including me)..
But that monday night.. was the so good.. we had the time to rekindle our childhood memories fill with laughter and joy. How we realised that we were those naughty young girls try to disturb other people and how this 'other people' turn to be somebody..
My only thought is that our friendship wil remain forever eventhough we now have grown up children of our own. I hope that we will continue to find time to spend together till our last breath..True Friends remain Forever..

I am a Poor Communicator!!

Why is it so difficult to communicate? To be silent means a good communication? I am a poor communicator. I am too engrossed with getting my ways, forgetting that there are other people surrounding me. I am overly demanding. I always say not to expect so much from others but actually I am. It is only lips sevice. It is not right and I have to get away from this foolish act before things get out of hand. I am good at saying things but I have to be honest that I am so poor in delivering it. I expect changes but the only person that requires change is ME...

I change my Hairstyle.. The Organic way??

One of my resolution this year is to do something with my hairstyle. Been keeping it straight and long without curls or even coloring for quite sometime. But then, I got bored with it. So, I asked my hairstylist friend Mimie whether I could change my hairstyle. Her usual reply is so encouraging, boleh bah klu ko!! Ok then.. today noon.. off I drove to her saloon and did some half perming called 'organic way'. Why organic? Because the lotion they proposed me to used are made of organic stuff??? I think. Was it really organic? I don't know actually. Alas.. my long straight hair got curls.. But too bad, I cannot do my favorite blow set yet... I have to wait for 4more days to let the lotion sip through.. Never mind, I can wait! Bottom line, I permed my hair. Off goes one of my resolution..


Ok.. the hair style is almost like this picture except that I am not the person. Just giving some idea how's my new hair style should look like after few days..

My only thought and hope is that my hair will not be ruined by this so called 'organic lotion' that cost me almost RM200.00 (What an investment!) and up my spirit even higher

I am Thankful

Got this quote from the book of Lectio Divina, Feb 2010, It says..

I am thankful that I don't already have everything I desire,
If I did, what would there be to look forward to?

I am thankful when I don't know something
For ti gives me the opportunity to learn.

I am thankful for the difficult times.
During those times, I grow.

I am thankful for my dark nights,
For God is there in the most profound level.


I am thankful for my limitations,
Because they give me opportunities for improvement.

I am thankful for each new challenge,
Because it build my strength and character.

I am thankful for my mistakes,
It taught me valuable lessons.

I am thankful when I am tired and weary,
Because it means that I have a difference.

It is easy to be thankful for the good things
A life of rich fulfillment comes to those who are also thankful for the setbacks.

Gratitude can turn a negative into a positive. My only thoughts and hope is that I would continue to find a way to be thankful for my troubles so that they can become my blessing, that I will not easily forget my root, the hardship that I have gone through to be where I am now, that what I have at the moment is just temporary, I am only passing through

Why I still like to see movie at the cinema

Despite that we have this so called DVD player with its best sound system, or even the ASTRA (now the HD) with many channels that I can't see them all, I still prefer to go to the cinema and watch my favorite movie. And glad too that my family enjoys same hobby and whenever there is good movie coming to the cinema, my children will start nagging us to book the ticket in advance. Movies that really fascinate me and make really appreciate the modern technologies are movie like 2012, Avatar, Twilight, Legion, etc. These movies are fantastic, really attract my attention and give me hope that cinema will not fade away despite of the emergence of movie provider at home.

Watching movies also one of of our family bonding where everyone enjoyed going to the cinema including my dear hubby. Though sometimes he could not understand the movie like Twilight-New Moon, but still he did his best to watch the movie. Also watching the movie encourages discussion about the movie among my children which actually is good for them. At least, am glad that they do have something in common unlike the teasing and arguing most of the time.
My thought and hope that there will be continuous great movies available so that my family and I will have something to do together.

True Friends Remain Through Thick and Thin...

Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow.
Don't walk behind me, I may not lead.
Just walk beside me and be my friend

Thank you for your friendship. It's hard to find true friends nowadays. Though there may be time we disagree over certain matters, but we remain friends. I am not a perfect person. I can be overly demanding.. perfectionist sometimes and very very meticulous. Nevertheless, you stood by my attitude.. and for that I thank you for keeping up with me.. and I will do same to you, my friends..

My thought and hope that you would remain to be my true friend through thick and thin...

Am I being Paranoid?

I guess all parents would experienced what I am experiencing nowadays. My two children are growing up too fast. They become more and more demanding for spaces. I wish that they are still small so that it would be easier to control and monitor their movement. But now, they have their own circle of friends, own activities and interest. I am beginning to worry for nothing. I think I am using this words 'don't do that, don't do this' many times and am worried that as time goes by they will get bored and do not listen to me anymore. Where do I draw the line? Should I just keep quiet and let them go freely or should I restricted more. I just can't figure it out. Am worried again.. that one day they may just stop listening to me. I think I am overly protective of them and therefore their spaces becoming smaller for them to breathe.

My thought is that my children will try to understand that I am just trying to do what is best for them, but I guess it is overly done. My only hope is that I could learn to slowly let go as they expand their wing.

Alistair Patrick

My Handsome Son.. Alistair
Born on the 5 April 1995. Very tall for his aged, 15 years old. Infact taller than his daddy. A quiet boy, likes to read a lot too. Love to play rugby (don't know where he got the idea, none in the family plays rugby), ever represent MRSM (U12) Rugby tournament at Kuala Kangsar in year 2007, like futsal and football too, have small circle of friends, play organ well (Gred 3), left handed like me, also got an LG HP (courtesy from his ever generous daddy), give 1 answer for 1 question, like to play video during the weekend, love to watch movie with the family, prefer to wait and see, ask question only when necessary, loves to eat pizza a lot.

My thought and only hope for you my beloved son,.. that may you grow up into a nice looking man, smart, intelligent and independent too'.

Sarah Megan Patrick

My one and only princess... Sarah Megan Patrick,
Born on the 20th May 1998. Got her black belt karate in year 2009, Love to do rollerskating, likes to swim, Gred 2 Organ player(moving up to Gred 3), A Track Runner for her school, likes to read a lot, likes to listen to music, own a LG HP (courtesy of her usually generous daddy), likes to bully her only 'abang', the only one in the family that could understand 'Nike' her dog, has thick long black hair (she definitely got it from me), tall and slimmer for a 12 years old girl (yes.. she got my height too..) and many more interesting part about her that I love to observe as time goes by.. Able to express herself well, not afraid to ask question and can give all sort of answers for a just 1 question from me, the mother. Queries a lot and very intuitive too.. Naughty most of the time and knows how to enjoy herself.. Very very demanding too.. and would not take 'No' for an answer.

My thought and only hope for you dear dear Megan.. is that may you grow up into a beautiful, intelligent and independent lady..

What I intend to do this year..

Goodbye & Farewell Year 2009.. I had a lot of good and not so good memories to cherish.Things that I dread most after waiting for almost 11 years happened .. I have signed the NRS. I took over the President chair of KSR for 2 term (2009-2010). I KIV my futsal for a while but continued my line dancing. I lost weight.. hooray.. yes I did.. I lost about 3 Kg. But I still have to loose another 3 Kg. I acted in our Passion Group drama of the year, the Queen of Nenetnuya (its CM idea)during our PRIDE camp. I painted my beautiful hyundai matrix car with 'crystal pearl blueish green' that cost my other half about RM3,700.00 TQ my darling hubby for sharing your BIG bonus with me..Good Bye.. 2009

Hello Year 2010..
What I intend to do? Yes.. Intend is the right word. I will not used the conventional word 'resolution' because it sounds so not original. I will note down what I intend to do this year.. Here goes..
1. I intend to change my routine.. Use different route, change my hairstyle (again..),
2. I intend to eat better.. Yes.. I must, I have no choice. Age is catching up. Less oil, more wheat food, more fruits, more vegetables..
3. I intend to have real conversation. Really? Have I not been conversing before? Okay, perhaps, I need to sit down more and really get into meaning conversation.
4. I intend to De-clutter often. Anything.. dress, shoes, heels, handbags, mails (yuck.. I hate this), unwanted files, etc, etc.. etc
5. I intend to do more Exercise. Okay, I am currently doing the jazzexercise but only about 20 minutes, 3X a week. So, perhaps, need to add another 10 mins. Yes.. I must revive my Futsal. Where are my team? We got BIG Tournament this year. Lets start practising again. We got court every wednesday.. I will definitely continue my line dancing. I love dancing, so this will add to my exercise listing.
6. I intend to listen more. Not that I have not been listening but I guess it is not sufficient. Importantly, I must listen more to my children and not just nag them, and put a full stop to their queries. Ok Alistair & Megan, remind mummy to talk less and listen more.
7. I intend to have more fun. I will! I will live my life to the fullest as if there is no tommorrow.
8. I intend to enjoy every journey that I took, including my drive to the office since I will be using a different route. I should reduce my mph driving so that I have the time look at what is in my left and right side of the road.
9. I intend to read more. Oh my dear, I still have few more books which I bought last year and did not manage even to open and read it.
10. I intend to do another stress relief, something new. But I still enjoy going for relaxing body massage(at least once a week), I go for window shopping or hairwash. Maybe, this year, I will do more writing either in this blog, or somebody's blog.
11. I intend to be more involved in the charity work. Yes, this is important to me becoz it will remind me of my root and will keep my foot intake.

I think that's about it what I intend to do this year. My thought is that for this year I will embrace any hurdles and challenges with an open heart. My only hope is that throughout the journey, it will give me the opportunity to improve myself emotionally, physically, mentally and spiritually.